Why?

Sometimes i don't even know why i behave like an irrational adult (or perhaps i'm still a kid).

I don't know why I keep looking at my phone, waiting for you to call, or even a drop by a message.

I don't know why I keep waiting, hoping to catch you somewhere, hoping you'll be just outside my school.

I don't know why I feel irritated not hearing from you the whole entire day.

I don't know why males always listen to females when we say no. Haven't anyone told you before that when we say no, we usually meant a yes?

No, don't reply usually means please try so you can make me happier.

Translation anybody???

Why don't you even put in any effort at all?

But somehow I know i'm much at peace now, contradicting as it may sound. More time for everything I have once neglected, perhaps even happier. Being alone isn't such a bad thing, if you try to look at the bright side of it.

For a very simple reason, I don't have any expectations that was never fufiled before anymore. I no longer have any reasons for expectations, for improvements in you.

Maybe that's why i'm happier.

Am I?