the weekly update

i'm glad i'm sticking to my 2nd year plan.
so far. i've been keeping out of any school stuff and fussing over my external projects.

Guides HQ called me up to double up as a photographer for AGM. At this rate I'm voluteering, i wonder if i can offer my services at the Istana coming President Guide's Award. MAYBE they'll consider letting me do the paid photographer role. hmm.. then again, i HATE covering events. blehs.

Red Cross's got an event coming up and we're thrown into it. Bringing old folks to the heritage centre and dinner. And Mr Cho's coming down to help out! :)

Next weekend gonna be a biatch. 4 events on a Saturday: Post Poly Forum Gathering at Ngee Ann Polytechnic, Montage Workshops at Canon, Dinner with the old folks and DAMAI'S CAMPFIRE. sigh. I really don't want to miss that....
Sunday will also be devoted to helping out at the Big Walk. Guess this active participation is part of me wanting to complete my NYAA Gold this year.

Blah. Some thoughts I have:

Perhaps why I'm afraid to commit into relationships with people is that I am afraid of its fragileness. I hate small talk, i'm scared of "closeness". To commit is to make yourself vulnerable to the other party, to be involved makes one expects something out of another. And hence sometimes, when friends or time breaks the bond, you feel the pinch and wondered why you chose to get involved to begin with.

That's why I'm starting a relationship with the forlorn desk on level's 5 studio. Nobody to make small talk with, just the work and me. :) Can some authority get involved in getting the cleaners to stop lazing around chit chatting in their loud voices?

Halfway through Block Teaching, the ultimate pain in our asses nowadays. I'm glad I don't have classes on Mondays, which leaves me without Monday Blues. Work's being done on time, so I'm happy like a monkey. Time for family, time for boyfriend, time for early mornings working my macbook pro. I don't feel so much like a planner nowadays, when do what work, now its just when to do whatever needed. As long as lecturers are a little more liberal and flexible with the INSANE datelines, I'm fine.

Brother and sister are being annoying. Part of growing up with twins I guess. Sometimes I feel like I'm missing out, or even not being a big sister to them. But where do I come in?

Some individuals who don't leave your life that easily, are those that eventually matters most to you. With some of them perpectually around, its hard to forget what you used to be, or the responsibilty you owe. Mummy Oon called me today and somewhat re ignite my guiding light. I'm heading for camp this june! I guess it meant more to me, it wasn't just a call. It was a responsibilty i chucked somewhere out of my mind for a while, a lost spark I used to dance with. Guides in blue, sisters in times, teh peng in the guides room. I'm so missing that. Bee, Lynn, Enli, Joyce, Eve, Jia Jin, Ivy. I haven't seen you for a long long long long long time alreadddyyy.

Don't you just miss the times where things were just simpler, where people were more honest and forgiving?
When you used to be a child and loved the world?