i see you everywhere

When I decided to be single,
I never anticipated the days to be spent alone.
Days when seemingly all your friends are busy,
and somehow everyone decided to quit partying
just when you begun to feel the itch for.

I never expected the instances
where I will consciously
watch couples lean by one another,
listen to words of songs, about break ups and of love,
feel the absence of his hand in mine.
I just never thought I'd cry.

Now these days I've been absorbing so much around me,
interning at Him's, finally watching Fashion being alive.
I zoomed around, happy to simply be there,
feeling it was an inch closer to where I want to be.
As I happily walk my errands,
"Remember...I walked away for this."
And then
miserably felt the tears on a hinge ready to flow.

.

I knew soon will come a time,
where the seperation become really true.
Before, it felt like things were just on a standstill,
today it rang so true.

I thought I'd remember the times we argue,
the nights I mumbled two lines and hung up,
the increasing instances where I felt so miserable being a girlfriend,
I thought, I thought. I thought it was all bad.

Rey taught me Love.
Our first kiss felt like my first.
The first time we held hands,
I believed I never held anyone else's before.

Despite all,
he taught me maturity, the value of a relationship.
Of respect and trust,
of big words they all talk about.

Before Rey,
Love was Infatuation,
Relationships weren't of the truth,
there wasn't a year's anniversary,
let alone two.

He was my best friend,
a long time we knew.
Honestly,
there was a time I never doubt
I'll never find somebody new.

For so long we were two.
Today I woke up alone.
I can cry a river,
but whatever,
I still have to learn to say goodbye.