tears are my best friend

I can't help but to head back to Square One.
I'm tired of it, he's tired of explaining too.
But why is it that i can't help thinking i can't handle a relationship like this?
I need it to be normal,
just like any other couple.
Close, spend alot of lovey dovey time.
Long chats on phone,
frequent meet ups.
I can't accept what I'm having,
not yet
but I'm trying damn hard.
I need constant distraction,
focus on my work work work and more work.
Or I'll just start having all the weird thoughts,
of how single I feel.
Where's the couplehood?
Crap,
I don't want to keep crying.
Somebody, teach me how to stop?

What happens if all the work stops?
What would be of me?