BFF.

Have you ever heard of the superstition;
that luck bestows one who unknowingly slips into his underpants inverted?
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I slept at 6.10am last night, rushing to meet deadlines. Woke up at about 7am,
which means, yes I've crawled awake for 19 hours with something less than an hour's rest.
To describe today as amazing, is awfully underrated. .
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Final Presentation was god-awful, but Desmond didn't think so.
I was disappointed but ultimately more relieved and resigned in a positive manner.
Breathing like a 19yr old, I abandoned logical plans to take a short nap at home and instead,
had a hearty thoughtful lunch with Jon. Jon makes me thinks alot, and pisses me even more.
The weather made it beautiful to slow-walk from driving classes to studio,
all the beauty and excitement of the world gushing towards me.
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Cherhim, this being almost my last few times around the studio,
has somehow made it different by this surprising revealing of his sincere personality.
He tries hard everytime, but to finally literally explain something photographic in nature,
made the wow and whoomp in my day.
Boss kindly even drove me to the Mrt today,
as I rush off to the Crowbar Award Dinner,
leaving my thoughts and worries with him.
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Imagine my horror and anxiety as I stumbled into an area where I don't see any of my works displayed. Bad/Good sign, I debated? And in my extreme incomprehension of the overwhelming importance of winning,
I said, Heck. Let's just enjoy the company, enjoy the dinner.
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I didn't win anything at all. Not even as a finalist. Deflate my ego, stamp on my floaty dreams.
Yet I felt genuinely happy for the Gold Winner,
believing that my works were nothing in comparison to her concept, indeed.
It helped getting the call during the award show.
I am a successfully shortlisted candidate for noisesingapore apprenticeship program!
All of my current life's accomplishments
stood at standstill and crossroads today.
Today alone KC got in touch with me from London, asking me to assist him for the next 2 wks,
NH called me yesterday, and we're in the midst of confirming my new internship program.
CherHim's supposedly ends this week, but we mentioned how I can still come in if I'd wanted.
AND NOW, IF MY INTERVIEW IS SUCCESSFUL...
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Commitment overkill, you've worked thus long,
and with relationship just beginning, its' time to go.
In others judgment, I may be a bummer, no award to commentate my effort.
Yet as Fei discussed, we walked away already winners!
Knowing all these contacts of people in the industry,
having the motivated drive others recognizes in us,
employment offers, the confidence and knowledge picked up in a year.
I believed in the months differences of which I submitted for Crowbar and Noise,
I learnt so much about myself, about my works, I now perceive and perform so differently.
How to put it in words?
We never saw ourselves in where we are right now, a year ago.
In our own definition, we already are successful in our own rights.
To be truly happy for the crowbar winners, was more than I imagined myself to be.
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The best part of it all, was realizing what it takes to be someone's best friend.
To feel proudly ecstatic for her achievements,
the moment she was scouted by a certain owner of a design company.
Not a single drop of jealously nor envy,
just pure euphoric and love.
To know she understands as much as I do,
and sometimes we clap in excitment to end our sentences that are otherwise left unsaid.
The sudden slap on the face that left me tearing, realising what I'd leave behind if I fly.
We were so high, me an hour's worth of sleep, using fingers to hold my eyes open.
High from all the discussions about ambitions, life and future,
about motivations and characters in our lives,
about grims and emotions.
To feel our minds literally streched from all the greater awareness,
there's nothing more I'd ever need in a friend.
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Today is a special day,
because it is a day I realised I truly know of a best friend.
peng san time, nights!