& i am dependent all over again.

i got used to sleeping alone without a soothing voice on the phone,
and you came along to tempt me with your lovely words.
now you're somewhat missing,
and i am constantly thinking of you.

i am not as strong as i thought i could be.
it took a shit load of effort for me to learn the art of compartmentalizing,
and all it took was a seductive charming one;
You. Knocked the walls all over and down.

the day i called you my somebody,
i slipped.
i changed, i softened, i felt.
now i cannot be the same despite how hard i still try.

you know, i know.
this cannot last, this won't last.
but why, why then are we still involved?
is this you, running away from me?

so fast, too soon.
don't go, not yet.
i should, but please don't.
now how, now what?