A day in E Space.

I guess Steph's right. Should I chose to portray and behave as I am, i ought to be expecting the consequences and judgement of others. I too should not be even bothered by comments of those i think little of. What in the world did I let myself get affected for?

Behaviours of some really puts me off. Their actions, their irresponsible, selfish self. But then again, its their life, their choice. I guess Mr Wee have been , to a certain extent, right. Majority of today's youth is caught in their own world, blinded to any other external events. Not bothered by ongoing global events, not concerned about their heritage, their culture, lost in creating their own identity. I cannot see myself as one of today's youth. I cannot reason myself with their values nor can i accept their way of life.

Feeling quite lousy and disgusted by the various incidents that happened yesterday, I felt pretty alone. Like a lone figure moving about doing her everyday tasks silently, watching others from where she stands. I thought I was alone, I thought no one would be having the sames thoughts as I have, I thought wrongly. Prata with Stephanie really lifted up my day.

As we run through the events and shared our thoughts, I realised we had much in similar. And I am contended being like this now that I understand her better. I really am contended being pretty much a loner, executing my own decisions, carrying my tasks out efficently and tuned to near perfection. I really am contended having just her as a real friend, even if I cannot "click" the rest of our entire design school, one having one real friends beats having a cohort of accquaintances. I really am contended being like this, doing my work, having Stephanie as my close bud here in Design, and having my supportive boyfriend who really doesn't grumbles much. Muack!

Rey complements me in every way. He points out sides which i never considered, pinpoint my imperfections and basically doesn't make a big fuss when i don't have the time for him. I guess I really need to be more sensitive and aware for he really isn't one who makes a whole lot of noise. (basically not like me.) He pointed out how I shouldn't just be commenting and chosing not to do anything, how my actions contradicted. How in the midst of arrowing people's imperfections, i have mine to deal with. He also made me realised how I should have more faith in Stephanie, for I should not have jumped into conclusions, considering that we are to a certain degree of closeness. I'm sorry, Stephanie. For even having the thought that you're like one of those "kids". But that was before dinner lah! =)

I think i'm pretty stressed, unknowingly. I can't sleep through one entire peaceful night without thinking about the tasks to be accomplished, my schedule for the next day. I practically can't sleep without waking up with all these thoughts in my head. And I can't make myself sleep in even if i want to. Argh!