Trust

Couldn't blog last night but i got plenty in mind. so here goes:

Upon rushing for the past entire week, i went to school with my 2.5m by 2.5m board in a lorry for submission. That's when i started realising alot of stuff. Perhaps how i used to percieve myself or thought my status in school was all but a fantasy. I needed help, big help. But no one came to do so. Of all, my whole entire guides company was in the canteen! But none... none came.

As I reached the art room, criticism were flung at me. " Why so huge?" "Can't you downsize it?" "Transport?" "Manpower?" Nothing, no praise. No mentor said anything good. "Why didn't you inform the school?" The last i recall, the subject I am taking is ART. Art where it celebrates freedom of expression, art where nothing is impossible, art where you are supposedly supposed to express your creativity. IS THIS IT?

Then my mentor started taking pictures of my work for documenting. In case i lost it or something. That's when i started questioning the values of our society. Miss Loo, the overall in charge initally asked him for another set of copies of the photos. But within minutes, she turned around and insisted that he was not allowed to take pictures. Following which, she turned a blind eye when he continued snapping before confronting him again. That's when i saw the ugly side of Man.

I once pondered, if there were no evils of the man, there wouldn't be a need to lock the doors of our house, fence the area around it. If we lived simply and trust everyone, where trust is mutual, fence would never existed. Why are we, in Singapore, faced with such a dilema? In America, a fence around a house was a rare find. Is it because there were trust, there were respect, there were a silent promise? What has become of Man?

And if there were trust, Miss Loo would have buy my mentor's story, believing that he was doing it all for my sake. When no sharing occurs, knowledge would have become nothing but in a mere state. There would be no learning, no progression. Isn't it? So even if he had taken the photos with the intention to show it to others, to spur ideas and teach the future, WHAT'S WRONG? Why is there no trust? Why should everyone guard themselves against another?